Currently right now I'm suffering from my own "diseases of civilization." Instead of doing my biology homework or heading to bed, I instead type this out and wiggle in my seat. I am unable to sit still or even calm down. I constantly cannot concrate on one task, often getting lost in my music, or a movie, or something around me. Or just the need to get up.
Science has no idea what goes on with this. Some say its an issue with my frontal lobes while there's a theory its some left over gene that we had as a hunter-gather society.
Whatever the cause of it, I cannot go to bed. I cannot activate my work. I cannot go to bed.
I have ADHD. Attention Deficit Hyperactive Disorder. People say it doesn't exist but they obviously haven't met me. I live an organic vegan lifestyle and I don't really drink caffinated products so its not my diet that causes me to fidget and hyperactivety. Its not laziness that causes me to not be able to finish things or start tasks.
Its a disease.
Its a disease that I cannot read fast or spell. I had the read level of a high schooler by the time I was in fourth grade yet the spelling skills of a second grader. It took me a month to read a book that would take others a week.
Right now, while I'm typing this, I'm having trouble coming up with words to fill the sentences up. I'm constantly seeing the red underline, clicking on it and getting frustrated at how it wasn't the word I meant to type.
I have the disease of Dyeslixa.
This disease was brought about by civilization. It isn't nature to read. Its narutal to speak but it isn't natural to read. Reading and writing was something deveopled by civilization and is in fact a marker of what makes a civilization advanced or not.
Because it isn't narutal to read the words on a page. Some people for whatever reason learn how to read with a different part of the brain than where one normally learns how to read.
Letters fuse together while I'm reading. I sometimes will look at a word that I know the defination by heart but because I never came across with it in reading, will not recongize it. I often get frustrated while writing because even though its a passion of mine, its so diffcult to do. Its diffcult to constantly have bad spelling and misplaced grammar.
While these diseases are not killing me, it makes it diffcult for me to live. The construct of learning in an enviroment where everyone must be alike was very diffcult for me. Its still diffcult for me. Its diffcult for me to have friends go through books around me and discuss them at the drop of a hat while I'm still on chapter two. Its diffcult for me to pay attention in class. Its diffcult for me to keep up a blog that I want to keep up and share my thoughts.
It makes it diffcult to live within this cage known as civilization.
This is why they are my diseases of civilization.
edit: if you're wondering why some of the stuff is mispelled, its because I actually wanted it to be like that.
